whole lotta love!

First Christmas in America..

Sound's like a movie title? hahaha... well yeah its true.. its just my first time spending Christmas in the US... although i've been here several times, i've been living here for 6 months now..

So how did i spend my Xmas? don't ask... its boring...!!!!

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so sad...

I never thought it would happen, i'm so stupid to think we could work it out... I guess it can't really happen, maybe i did too much, caused too much pain.. Well, i guess, we won't be having any conversations for awhile.. I guess being friends is not enough for you, i guess you just wanted me out of your life, i mean to forget about me just so you could move on.. Was I not even that important at all?? To treasure me at least in a single photo.. Whew, Christmas sucks damn! Well if you're ever gonna read this, i'm really sorry.. I tried, i sure did everything i could to salvage what we had, back then you really are my only.. But I guess you're the one who moved on quite well, well enough to erase me in your memories, in your thoughts.. I'd never forget you.. Well, sad to say but i guess it's for the best if you forget about me since i'm the one who caused your world to collide.. Goodbye... :C

Extr3mes Of Life!!

Now Why Do I Consider My Life Anything But Ordinary??

Coz i love the extreme... what exactly is the extreme? what is living the extreme??

i'll tell you.. i'm not your ordinary friend.. i can say i'm superhuman... why? easy... i try to make my life more difficult than what people normally wouldn't want to happen to them...

Challenges, it brings out the best in me... What have I done that made me extraordinary? It's my whole life...

Extreme Living.. that's what i call it.. you can call me weird or whatever, but that's the way i live my life..

First, i'm the person who Loves Heights, Speeds, Weights.. I could say i'm addicted to rollercoasters, always on the front, hands up high.. what's much fun than being there? is having someone who doesn't want to be there.. the thrill i get is not from the ride but from the riders who scream out loud of fear or excitement..  i could also say i love hanging around in high rises, just seeing the ground from atop brings light to me..

Second, I love the heat.. hot, the flaming fire.. Well, i'm not a firestarter nor do i own even a lighter, but what i'm saying is i like my food HOT.. FIERY HOT... so hot that it makes you perspire, it makes your nose drip, your lips burning, your throat itching, your thirst for water is way up there... Sometimes i even go beyond eating hot, let me explain this..  The DIP is hot, The Viand is hot, and the Rice which i especially made is also hot.. take that!

Third, I love being in trouble, time trouble i mean.. i always do things late not because i was busy but because i really wanted to do those things at the last moment.. in a rush i mean.. But when preparing for something, i always give the most time to it, so not to rush... kinda ironic isn't it? or don't you understand?

Fourth, Education wise, i'm the least candidate for the smart-ass in the class.. why? its not because i can't, its because i don't want to be... in simple words is.. i try to not make it on top, i'm trying to limit myself to not go all out.. Of course i never failed any subject, but not to brag, i really didn't find any difficulty with school, make intermediate, high or college level.. That's why i'm always cool, only acting that i'm worried about not passing.. haha.. that's me...

Fifth, what's weird about me, is i'm not healthy but i've neve been hospitalized, never had a headache or toothache or stomachache of any sort, well i got a headache but that's from drinking... haha.. i seldom get sick but when i get sick, i don't take meds, coz i believe my body becomes stronger if i try to fight the sickness myself.. nor do i try to rest for the whole day, that's too boring and stupid if you ask me..

Sixth, my favorite music is rock, but what you don't know is i would rather listen to female vocals than to male vocals, and why is that?? simple, coz i'm a man, do u think i'd listen to a man most of my time? that's crazy.. After all, male vocals are not really what im after, its the instruments that make Rock, GOD'S MUSIC...

Seventh, i'm a writer, not a novelist nor a storyteller, not a journalist.. what i write is what simply comes to my mind.. usually what i write is rubbish, coz writing notes, lectures, lessons, really i'm so lazy dumb on doing that.. but when something just lingers in my mind, i had to get it out, i jot it down.. result is.. hundreds of pages a day of wasted paper..

Eighth, in relationship wise.. i've had two of the extremes of relationships.. but what's the same, is that it ended rather the same..  i ended it, although i don't want to, i just realized i had to.. i know i'm a bad person.. but i entered those relationships really prepared for the worst.. i've put out the most tears but i ended up staying 100% healed.. or i could say i've moved on..

Ninth, i'm a lier.. i lied to save my ass, i lied to save someone else, but mostly i lie because i don't like what's happening.. i lied so many times, everyday of my life that i know no matter how hard i try to make up for it, i can't... lie just comes out of my mouth.. i'm really sorry guyz..

Tenth, now u know, 9 extremes of me..  but what you'd want to know is above all else, no matter how big of a lier i am.. you can trust me.. you can lean on me.. you can tell me everything... i just made up most to make this post long! wahahahaha!!!... anyway.. i'm gonna add to this list sooner or later.... :P

My top 21 songs!!!

To know more about me.. you've got to know my top 21 songs... its only appropriate to share with you my selection of the greatest music man has ever made... ROCK!!!

1. Pure Massacre - Silverchair, first of all this is not what you're thinking, its not brutal or so as the title says, its really about a cry for peace.. Although the title is soooo wicked!      "People crying for freedom"

2. Be Quiet And Drive - Deftones, the intro is so awesome, and for me, this is their best song.. "I don't care where just far away!!"

3. Man In The Box - Alice In Chains, just listen to this song, and the guitar performance just says it all with the unmatched vocals.. "Jesus Christ, deny your maker"

4. Whole Lotta Love - Led Zeppelin, you can't embrace the true rock if you'll just go emo! This song of this band, clearly states what rock should be! "Way down inside, i'm gonna give you my love"

5. Ava Adore - The Smashing Pumpkins, one of the most unique band i've ever known, and one of their band members is a girl! woohoo!! "You'll be a lover in my bed, and a gun to my head"

6. Show Me How To Live - Audioslave, thanks to you Chris Cornell! If they could've made some more brilliant songs then they would've been my top favorite band.. "And in your waiting hands, i will land"

7. Lithium - Evanescence, this is not the best of bands, but is it not great that a female leads a band, especially this woman with a voice made to rock! "Always find my place among the ashes"

8. Freak On A Leash - Korn, surprise surprise, well, its a song for those who f**king has a problem with life.. "Life's got to always be messing with me"

9. Best Of You - Foo Fighters, this is an amazing band, after Nirvana, David Grohl forms a new band, leads it, making it one of the best bands for me.. "I needed somewhere to hang my head, without your noose"

10. Warning - Incubus, such an interesting , i don't know why but this song is excellent to my ears.. The lyrics of Incubus are somewhat most times doesn't make sense but its still great! "What's so wrong with being happy?"

11. Question - System Of A Down, the lyrics are non sense, the vocals is not great but the delivery of the song, and the uniqueness of it.. "When we, when we go, do we die?"

12. Alive - Pearl Jam, who doesn't love Pearl Jam! I guess the band is non existent for years, but their music lives within us! "Have i got a little story for you"

13. Rape Me - Nirvana, I don't know why i love this song, i just love it! The delivery of the song, the emotion of it.. Its just mind bending! "I'll kiss your open sores!"

14. Stand Up - Steel Dragon, the lyrics is so damn sexy! Hahaha! "No one's ever tortured you with pleasure, pleasures all you'll ever feel from me"

15. Five Alive - Lokomotiv, this band, is not that famous, i don't even know who the members are, but this song is too great to pass by.. "Sign the deal and go straight to hell!"

16. Before I Forget - Slipknot, well, i like metal and grunge, if its loud then its great! This song is not just about loud.. "Pay attention to your twisted little indiscretions"

17. Icky Thump - The White Stripes, this band, i mean the couple/band i'd say is a different kick to the world of Rock.. "Well you can't be a pimp and a prostitute too"

18. Tear Away - Drowning Pool, as i've said i like it loud! but the delivery is just so much more.. "I don't care about anyone else but me"

19.  Hitchin' A Ride - Green Day, At first I thought this band wouldn't last but with every single they release, its like their destined to become one of the best.. "Cold turkey's getting stale, tonight i'm eating crow"

20. Vertigo - U2, one of the greatest bands in the world, Bono my man, well, their definitely not American! "And though your soul it can't be bought, your mind can wonder."

21. Boiler - Limp Bizkit, well, i've heard people saying negative s**t about this band, all i can say is that their music is worth listening to, well some songs are at least, hehehe.. "Why do you have to go and hurt somebody like me?"

Well this are my current top21 for now... so i hope you've known something real about me... no kidding.. :P